About the Campaign:
3 years ago, we moved back to Logan Utah. Ryan got his dream job at Utah State University. I got my dream job working at Castle Manor doing weddings. Our kids were doing great in school and making friends. It seemed that everything was going as good as it could. But as the stress of Ryan’s job grew so did his depression. A month ago, we tried to switch medications to see if that would help.
That change in medication brought on a very deep depression and suicidal thoughts. We have stopped and started a lot of medications since then with no positive effects. Ryan was hospitalized a few weeks later for concern about keeping him safe 24/7. I just couldn’t keep up with the constant worry. He came out for a week or so with a little improvement but then it quickly got worse. He attempted to end his pain and fade into nonexistence by taking a whole bottle of pills. I was not home when he did this but he told me the next morning. It was a miracle he had NO reaction to the pills! Not even an upset stomach or headache. He is back in the hospital this week. We have seen tender mercies from our Father in Heaven and amazing support from our Savior Jesus Christ. Family and friends have surrounded us with love and kindness.
If you know Ryan even a little bit this is so far out of character for him. We are working on finding the right medicine and sending him to a rehab center where he will get constant individual therapy and rebuild his skills to handle life’s pressures. The center is very expensive but we know that it will be worth it and that God has a plan for our family and we will become who he wants us to be through this process. We know God lives and loves all of his children. Thank you for your support, friendship and love.
62 comments
Anonymous
Ryan is a great person and needs our help. Please join me in this great cause supporting Amber, Ryan and their family. Thanks!
July 2, 2019 at 5:33 pm
Cody and Katie Bayles
Praying for you all! We love you!
July 2, 2019 at 8:13 pm
Aaron Brandley
Love you guys! I’m so glad he’s getting help.
July 2, 2019 at 9:53 pm
Scott Brandley
Hang in there Ryan! You have a huge support team who love you and your family. Keep fighting!
July 2, 2019 at 9:55 pm
JoAnn Giordano
Hugs and prayers to your family!
July 2, 2019 at 10:07 pm
Anonymous
I love Ryan and he made an impacted on me for good.
July 2, 2019 at 10:10 pm
W. Kurt Rieben
Good luck in your journey. We admire your courage! We will pray for you and your wonderful family! Kurt & Lynnette Rieben
July 2, 2019 at 10:15 pm
Anonymous
We love you Ryan and Amber! You have an army behind you cheering you on!
July 2, 2019 at 10:35 pm
Sarah
Love you Ryan
July 2, 2019 at 10:41 pm
MI Graf
I think the world of Ryan and Amber and sincerely hope that they will feel the love, hope, and support that we all want to give.
July 2, 2019 at 10:42 pm
Anonymous
We love you Ryan. You and your family are in our prayers. Keep fighting.
July 2, 2019 at 10:44 pm
Helena Ebisch
I love you Ryan. I’ve always looked up to you and your family.
July 2, 2019 at 10:58 pm
Berry & Melissa Banham
Ryan is one of the kindest souls we know. We love ya buddy! We are here to help you and your family any way we can.
July 2, 2019 at 11:32 pm
Stephen Brandley
wish we could do more! Love you all!!
July 2, 2019 at 11:46 pm
Sam Pead
Light will eventually prevail over the darkness of depression
July 3, 2019 at 7:34 am
Chris Becerra
Always with you buddy.
July 3, 2019 at 9:23 am
paul van Erp
Sending lots of love and strength to the Jackson family
July 3, 2019 at 9:44 am
Tara McCausland
Be strong and of a good courage, Jackson Family. You are loved.
July 3, 2019 at 10:40 am
Eric Peterson
Prayers
July 3, 2019 at 11:43 am
Blake Wiedenheft
Wishing you a speedy recovery. Take good care,
Blake and Michelle
July 3, 2019 at 12:06 pm
MaryClare Rollins
Hey, Ryan and Amber. You are brilliant and beautiful people, and your friends love you. I’m happy I can be here when you need support. I’m on your team.
MC
July 3, 2019 at 12:17 pm
James Jackson
Kipling your family in our prayers
July 3, 2019 at 12:25 pm
Todd Brandley
Hope everything turns out. I’ve been there it’s tough.
July 3, 2019 at 3:06 pm
Florence Wier
Ryan and Amber have a deep love for one another, their family and their God. Please pray for recovery!!!
July 3, 2019 at 4:40 pm
Jacob Andersen
I heard about this from the NJMM email sent by Derek Cullimore. I’ve always respected Sister Brandley and I wish the best for you and your family.
July 3, 2019 at 4:42 pm
Sarah Antonucci
Praying for your sweet family.
July 5, 2019 at 7:11 am
Anonymous
Our love and admiration for this family is strong and we are excited to strengthen that bond in the future. Amber and Ryan, we are in this mortal sojourn together – which means we are all on the same team. When we struggle, we know you are the type of family that will extend a needed hand. When you struggle, we wish to do the same! Much love to you all!
July 5, 2019 at 3:14 pm
Michael Visick
Please keep fighting to stay here with us and with your great family while we send many prayers your way!!
July 5, 2019 at 5:44 pm
Cats Brandley
We love you Ryan! You are strong, kind, wise, honest, and faithful. We see you.
July 5, 2019 at 10:40 pm
Adam Brandley
Love you guys!!
July 6, 2019 at 3:33 pm
Coby Hauser
Fight the fight meu amigo you are loved and not alone.
July 6, 2019 at 6:54 pm
Lila Cooley
My prayers are with you!
July 6, 2019 at 10:03 pm
K and S Hendricks
We love you guys and are praying that Ryan can get the help he needs and you all can endure this trial. You guys are the absolute best. Love and prayers!
July 7, 2019 at 5:47 pm
Linda Atwood
So sorry that you have to go through this trial. Hang on to each other, to your family and to the Lord’s hand.
July 7, 2019 at 11:33 pm
Dave
You and Jan are always so good to support our family. Thanks so very much.
July 8, 2019 at 5:36 pm
Anonymous
Sending all our love to the Jackson family! We love you!
July 8, 2019 at 9:43 am
Yalemi Morales
Best wishes through this difficult time. Ryan, I have been there and come out the other side, so will you. Please reach out, I would love to chat.
July 8, 2019 at 11:22 am
Chase Beisel
We’re here for you any time, Ryan! Please let us know if there is any other way we can help. – The Beisels
July 8, 2019 at 2:35 pm
Jane & Dave Richardson
Never forget that you yourself, your brilliant work, and your family are truly worth it!
July 8, 2019 at 4:34 pm
Justin Pinkston
Ryan, I wish I could give more but grad school, as you know, keeps me on a very tight budget. Wish you the best recovery and if you ever feel like talking I’m here.
Very grateful for all your mentorship these last couple years.
July 8, 2019 at 4:59 pm
Dave
Thanks for the opportunity to help. We sure love you and your family.
July 8, 2019 at 5:28 pm
Bradley Hintze
Ryan, we’re thinking of you and want to help anyway I can. I’ll talk to you soon.
July 8, 2019 at 7:33 pm
Matthew Young
Ryan, you are awesome! I have tremendous respect and admiration for you. Good luck to you and your family.
July 8, 2019 at 9:44 pm
Joe Bondy-Denomy
Pulling for you Ryan! I know you will get through this and back to being you. Take care of yourself.
July 8, 2019 at 11:45 pm
Phil Pack
Love and Prayers!
July 10, 2019 at 11:53 am
Bert and Amanda Tanner
Keep working on well, lots of people love you.
July 10, 2019 at 12:01 pm
Anonymous
You guys are amazing! Wish you all the best and a speedy recovery for Ryan
July 10, 2019 at 5:20 pm
Anonymous
Your family is in our prayers. Stay strong.
July 11, 2019 at 9:33 am
Anonymous
Very best wishes for Ryan
July 11, 2019 at 10:45 am
Pat and LeAnn Smith
Love to your family. Our faith and prayers go out to all of you. Let us lift one another.
July 11, 2019 at 12:08 pm
Liz Banks
Paying it forward. May God heal his mind and keep your family close in his arms.
July 11, 2019 at 7:42 pm
Anonymous
We Love you Ryan!!
July 11, 2019 at 9:35 pm
Zhiyong Yang
Hey Ryan, keep fighting and you can make it!
July 15, 2019 at 12:26 pm
Darek Sliwa
Ryan, you are an amazing and talented man. I know you will recover soon and find happiness! Best wishes for you and your family.
July 15, 2019 at 7:43 pm
Paul Willie
We love you and your family. We’re with you.
July 16, 2019 at 9:33 pm
Lindsey & Mark Swensen
We love you, Ryan! We are praying for you. Give yourself time. ❤️
July 21, 2019 at 4:12 pm
Sylvia Hoy
My dear friend and sister-in-law Marlene Graf posted your story. I would like to help and would give more if I could.
July 23, 2019 at 10:35 pm
Blaine and Jannille Miotke
Love you guys!
July 28, 2019 at 5:09 pm
Skye Olson
We love you Ryan & Amber! Praying for you and your family!
July 28, 2019 at 9:36 pm
Kristy Rasmussen
Know that you are Loved and supported!
July 29, 2019 at 10:09 am
Anonymous
Hope and help are on the way. Hang on.
July 29, 2019 at 12:51 pm
Anonymous
We agree with your comment Amber, the Lord has a plan for your family and you will become who he wants you to become through this experience. You have our love, support and prayers.
August 2, 2019 at 9:03 pm